
I woke up this morning to the sound of blue jays arguing outside the bedroom, for some reason remembering how I used to feel about Mondays. I was lying there in bed, wondering what day it was, and I finally remembered it had to be Monday because I needed to remind the husband to get the garbage cans out on the curb for Tuesday pick up.
Things used to be so different. Back when our children were still at home, Monday meant the weekend was over, the kids off to school, my husband back at work, and the week stretched out in front of me with all the racing around that’s required of a mother and wife. There were a lot more places I had to be, things I had to do–and always for someone else.
Monday meant a whole new week, but it also required a shift in routine. I knew I’d be spending the rest of the week working toward the weekend when it was time once again to take off my multitude of mom uniforms. Weekends I could share the load–I was no longer the full time taxi driver, cook, maid, gardener, therapist, teacher’s aide, nurse (there is ALWAYS a booboo or two to deal with!) dog walker, mommy and wife. Not that I didn’t do those things on the weekend, but at least I got to share the load and know that I could actually sit back and enjoy the kids.
But, as kids usually do, ours grew up, moved away, married and reproduced, (though I always said the “big kid,” — my husband stayed home.
) Once the kids were gone, I got really serious about my writing and life made a drastic change. My books began selling, the husband retired and took over most of the household, and everything made a monumental shift.
The biggest shift, in retrospect, is that I lost the joy of weekends vs. the expectation of Mondays. Now, unless I look at the little calendar in the corner of my computer screen that tells me what day of the week it is, I often don’t even know, and I think I miss that. My days sort of blend, one into the other. I wake up, pour myself a cup of coffee, wander upstairs and turn on my laptop no matter what day of the week it is.
Of course, then it doesn’t matter what day it is, because I lose myself in my fantasy world. I’m no longer Dabba, or Kate or even that weird neighbor who rarely leaves the house. It used to be I’d spend my days as Anton or Keisha or Adam or Liana or any of the other older generation of Chanku, and then I was Alton or maybe Dax, Eddie or Ginny from my DemonSlayers, but those stories are written, and their stories told.
Yesterday I was Addie from Demon Lovers, and for awhile Jett and Locan, and today I know I’ll be MacArthur Dugan, trying to find a way to save my alien lover. I don’t need to know what day of the week it is, because once I slip into my fantasy world, it’s whatever day or year I need for it to be.
So, in some ways I’ve lost my sense of expectation that Mondays used to bring, and weekends no longer hold the same lure, but I’m definitely okay with the trade off, because every day has become an adventure. Mondays? Not so big a deal–that day only exists in the real world. I think I’ll choose my fantasy world over the real one.
It’s a lot more fun, not nearly as dark and dangerous, and I can be whomever I want to be. Here’s a taste of my novella from the NightShift anthology that will introduce my newest Aphrodisia series, Dream Catchers. Meet MacArthur Dugan, a man who is waking up to the fact his sexual fantasies have given a woman life:
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There it was again, that sweet scent that made him think of warm vanilla wafers. Crawling out of a sublimely sexual dream featuring his latest fantasy female—a dream that faded away as consciousness returned—Mac sniffed the air. Had the smell of cookies awakened him?
He really wanted to get back to that dream.
The room was still dark, but the same tantalizing sweetness he’d noticed earlier filled his nostrils. Stronger now. Closer.
He reached for the lamp on the bedside table. A soft hand stroked his chest. Mac sucked in a gasp of air.
Scrabbling for the switch, he flicked on the light and shoved himself back against the headboard.
Blinking beneath the bright light, he stared into the face of a woman too perfect to be real—eyes so purple they sparkled like amethysts beneath thick, sooty lashes, and hair as black as night. Her skin was fair, her lips full and lush. If he’d dreamed her into existence, she couldn’t have been more perfect, and that was the only way she could have gotten here, because he sure as hell hadn’t invited anyone in tonight.
“Who the hell are you?”
She frowned. Her dark brows knotted, and two tiny lines appeared between them. “I’m Zianne,” she said, as if he should know. “Don’t you remember? And you are Mac.”
She spoke with a soft accent he didn’t recognize, in a voice that was low and sort of raspy. Hinting of sex and secrets, it raised shivers along his spine.
He shook his head. He’d been so damned drunk when he left Dinkemann’s place—had he met her somewhere tonight? He’d never had an alcoholic blackout in his life, but if this was the result, he’d definitely been wasting his time.
He flashed on the fantasy he’d had in the shower. The same woman beside him in bed? No. That wasn’t real. She wasn’t real. He’d imagined that. Hadn’t he? Was he imagining her here, now?
Impossible to imagine her scent, the weight of her warm body against his. Her touch. He inhaled a deep, shuddering breath. “Where’d you come from?”
She shrugged as if he were a complete fool for asking, and for a minute he thought he must be, because there was no way in hell he’d ever forget bringing someone like Zianne home to his apartment. There wasn’t enough alcohol in the world to make him forget a woman like her.
A memory flashed through his mind, of Zianne kneeling before him in the shower, her mouth…dear God. Her mouth!
She smiled with those perfect, lush lips and stroked his cheek with her fingertips. Her touch was soft and warm. Perfect
“You brought me here.” Her scent enveloped him, stealing his thoughts from the question.
There it was again, that sweet scent that made him think of warm vanilla wafers. Crawling out of a sublimely sexual dream featuring his latest fantasy female—a dream that faded away as consciousness returned—Mac sniffed the air. Had the smell of cookies awakened him?
He really wanted to get back to that dream.
The room was still dark, but the same tantalizing sweetness he’d noticed earlier filled his nostrils. Stronger now. Closer.
He reached for the lamp on the bedside table. A soft hand stroked his chest. Mac sucked in a gasp of air.
Scrabbling for the switch, he flicked on the light and shoved himself back against the headboard.
Blinking beneath the bright light, he stared into the face of a woman too perfect to be real—eyes so purple they sparkled like amethysts beneath thick, sooty lashes, and hair as black as night. Her skin was fair, her lips full and lush. If he’d dreamed her into existence, she couldn’t have been more perfect, and that was the only way she could have gotten here, because he sure as hell hadn’t invited anyone in tonight.
“Who the hell are you?”
She frowned. Her dark brows knotted, and two tiny lines appeared between them. “I’m Zianne,” she said, as if he should know. “Don’t you remember? And you are Mac.”
She spoke with a soft accent he didn’t recognize, in a voice that was low and sort of raspy. Hinting of sex and secrets, it raised shivers along his spine.
He shook his head. He’d been so damned drunk when he left Dinkemann’s place—had he met her somewhere tonight? He’d never had an alcoholic blackout in his life, but if this was the result, he’d definitely been wasting his time.
He flashed on the fantasy he’d had in the shower. The same woman beside him in bed? No. That wasn’t real. She wasn’t real. He’d imagined that. Hadn’t he? Was he imagining her here, now?
Impossible to imagine her scent, the weight of her warm body against his. Her touch. He inhaled a deep, shuddering breath. “Where’d you come from?”
She shrugged as if he were a complete fool for asking, and for a minute he thought he must be, because there was no way in hell he’d ever forget bringing someone like Zianne home to his apartment. There wasn’t enough alcohol in the world to make him forget a woman like her.
A memory flashed through his mind, of Zianne kneeling before him in the shower, her mouth…dear God. Her mouth!
She smiled with those perfect, lush lips and stroked his cheek with her fingertips. Her touch was soft and warm. Perfect
“You brought me here.” Her scent enveloped him, stealing his thoughts from the question.
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